Heartless?

Feels like I've been here before
Matter of fact as I recall
Love aint been a friend to me
It always pulls me up and lets me down
Spinnin my heart around
So I locked it up and threw out the key

Heartless? Not completely, yet. No matter how many times I've been hurt, I still believe in people and humanity. I still think there are real people out there.. I'm still sick and tired of those who don't keep it real with not just with me, but with themselves. It's annoying how weak they can be. I know there's reasons but where's the point. Srsly. Anyways back on focus, I didn't throw away the key but I did lock my heart up. I really did. I surprise myself cause I just don't fall easily anymore. No matter who comes around now, I just.. don't get stuck on them. It takes a while for me to actually LIKE them. Which I guess, is a good thing. I used to get attached easily to anyone who would catch my interest... but now, it's just... whatever. I do but I don't in a way. I'm not sure if I'm just growing up or am I just not capable of loving anymore? It's a long shot, cause I'm such a hopeless romantic.. See, I'm just not sure.

Bottomline: I want to be swept off my feet. Serrriiiiouuusssslyyyyyy. Real talk. Hahaha..... Jk. Well I do want someone who will break this guard I've built over the months. It'd be nice. REALLY nice. Sigh.