So tell me why...

Why must we always struggle to get where we want to be? Is it because we have to "learn" to appreciate it? Well what if I already appreciate it and I already know I deserve it? I know I sound narcissistic, but try not to judge me right away. You don't know me and these are just my thoughts. So with that in mind, why? Haven't we all suffered enough? Just a little light would help. I guess I'm sick of having my moods go up and down with my stomach twisting then all of sudden I'm good again. A simple-fix, "temporary happiness" is not for me anymore. I'm looking for something stronger, something authentic. But here I go again. Reminds me of my past blog when I was talking about the pursuit of happiness. I really do believe happiness is only meant to be pursued.. Asjdlfjk I don't know.

Hm. Well. I thought I was in a ranting mood, but... I guess not. o_o

Maybe later.