Here I Stand

Remember you changed my life in so many ways
I just look back to how I used to be and how you dealt with me
Just want to thank you for...
Just in case I never see your face again
Just in case the worst was meant to happen
Just in case tomorrow never come there is something you should know
I've given you every bit of the woman I am
I know at times it wasn't pretty but it was all I had
I never held back not one lil bit and the world can attest to this
And baby you flipped my program upside down.

The past few days has been a bit rough but yesterday, I had a realization of things. I was on the phone talking to an old friend and the things she was saying just woke me up a bit. At that moment I just stopped feeling bad or caring too much about everything. Maybe because I know I gave it my all. I never held any feelings back and expressed them the best way I know how. I mean really, I just put myself out there for my ex. So in short, I shouldn't regret anything because I did what I had to do to make it work. And it didn't work so here I am at a dead end all over again. I'm letting go because that's all left to do. Don't be mistaken though, I am torn up inside. I have my soft moments, especially at night. Yeahhh, Kamz is forever tainted.

Yesterday I was thinking a whole lot, even though I was out the whole day. Working and family time. Ahhhhh, I was still angry in the afternoon and it motivated me at work. I got everything done and shit. Hahaha, I laughed at myself at how focused I was. But after work, I felt so exhausted and that's when my mind catched up with my heart. I am a mess. I'm slowly picking myself up though. I'll be okay.

I wanna thank all my old & new friends, you guys really came through for me. I appreciate that so much. I got friends all over the world, and it comes in handy cause I'm pretty much nocturnal so I can talk to them any hour of the day. Hahaha. No seriously, thanks guys. I'm still standing.