Life's lessons.

I wrote this over a year ago.

I've been going through a couple of changes lately. Especially with myself. Well all of it is about me. I've noticed that I have so much time for myself lately. It's hard to not think now and just do. I was used to just doing than thinking about it for more than a couple of minutes. I don't know how to explain it really but I guess I just have to take it slow with myself and let it sink in that I have more personal time.

For a long time I've let time control me and in a twisted way I liked being controlled by time. I liked having the limit to do certain things at certain times. I like certainty. I thought I was in control but really I wasn't. Time was. ;x It sucks realizing that on my own you know. Though I did have some help by someone but I realized this on my own last weekend. I should refrain from running from things and stay to fix things because at the end of the day I will always have to come back to it and fix it. Not necessarily saying deal with it asap just to get things over with but rather do it for myself. It shouldn't take much effort. There are a lot of things that I need to change in me and I'm working on that in order to make me a better person. This may or may not make sense to you but it makes sense to me and I'm dealing with it now. Better late than never.

Life is full of lessons and I'm just trying to learn all of them.